what I'd do if I didn't had to work
I've been out of the place in my work for some time and I take it very badly. I don't know how to get myself back up again. And not sure I want to. I hope it changes in time. Nevertheless, outside work it is going quite well and I'm trying to come up with nice things to do so this period of my life has some kind of good compounding effect. I read a lot of cool stuff and I'm inspired in some degree in some career advice space but I get stuck very easily in between the idea, the dream and the execution or honestly, any kind of action.
So, I started wondering, what would I do if I suddenly didn't had to work but still had money and all the things to survive. First, I would book a trip to a fairly remote island somewhere warm, a place that is not full of tourists but have some locals that live there. For the first two, three weeks I'd turn off my phone and would just exist there in the nature, swimming, exploring, reading, just swinging. Then I'd fine a voluntary activity, some examples I'd be interested in - building a house, gardening, helping with any non-profit initiatives in a community. I'd want to spend a month immersed in the voluntary work.
I would be active and exercise, eat good food and try to make friends. I would immerse myself in my crafty hobbies and would like to try out some stuff I'd always wanted to but never did - play in a band, do street photography, learn wheel pottery. I would get pregnant and raise kids, spend time with my hubby and create all sorts of community events that enhance life for the people.
I would occasionally want to travel to new places. And not sure exactly where I'd want to live but probably close to my family. And preferably travel alternative ways - with a camper van, house sitting, hiking, bike packing.
The goal of my days would be to feel fully alive, be present and connect with people. It would still mean I would have to learn how to overcome my fears, challenge the perceptions and build up my self-esteem. And I really hope that I can one day build up this reality even with a work that feels right. And learn to love myself to the extent that I must fulfill these wishes even if the day-to-day doesn't feel so shiny.