Travel notes: Helsinki
I'm in Helsinki this weekend. My boyfriend invited me to come with him, although we don't spend that much time together. He's here because of a work conference and I'm just visiting, exploring on my own. I'm attempting to have a chill weekend just outside of home and I think I have down to earth plans.
Today, after arriving, I worked at a central library. It was so lively! Even for a Friday morning there were many people, just reading, playing games, having meetings, studying at desks. It was such welcoming and buzzing scene, that I would want to be a part of it if I lived here - just going to hang at a local library. Then I walked around but my geographical skills are not that good and I ended up going in circles but it forces me to see one places from different perspectives. Lunch at their local fast food restaurant Burgers&friends was 7/10. Then a quick trip to a yarn shop where I'm thinking on returning tomorrow, just need some time to think before I buy. And then to meet my boy for a moment. We stay at quite a nice hotel, I don't know the count of the stars but there is a rooftop pool. I mean, that says it all. When he left for the conference again I went up to the pool and sauna area and it was right about the sunset, the prettiest pink.
After writing this I will start to get ready for a concert at the Musiikkitalo. I'm truly enjoying myself. Tomorrow's plan is to go thrift shopping and get yarn for my new knitting project. Do some knitting in a cafe and chill at the hotel. My boy is going to be in the conference most of the day but we will have a nice Valentines breakfast.
observations: I'm comfortable by being by my self and doing things alone but I have this anxiety of starting; that sometimes hinder me. For example, it takes me several rounds around the library to finally sit down and feel grounded enough to do it. Even though I considered going elsewhere. Or almost past that yarn shop, but when I saw that people are in there, I just went. No thinking, let my legs take me.
My brain very often will try to find an escape route for completely mundane situations that are not threatening at all. And so I spend a lot of energy just by talking myself into the things I want to do.
But I'm glad that it is this way around. I really did all that I wanted today and I'm very proud of myself for taking the courage and turning off the volume of that always-talking-brain of mine.